Transformation

I’ve been quiet for a while, and when I’m quiet you know I’m going through something, and I’m processing it. I wish I could blog and write and share the things I am going through as I’m going through them, but it doesn’t work that way for me. I’ve always admired the bloggers who can share everything on their blog, the good, the bad, the painful. It speaks volumes to others but when I’m going through a change I retreat and contemplate and I analyze. I also hold it close to me because I don’t want to share it with anyone until I understand it myself.

So, let me back up, when I was younger, I was a very free spirit, my daughter tells people I was actually a granola mom. I had a garden, I only ate organic foods, I made their baby food, and we did not have soda or sugar in our house. The only cookies in my house were graham crackers and vanilla wafers. My conservative friends would introduce me as their “liberal” friend. And then I got my M.Ed. and I became the director of a school for children with learning differences. I shifted to a more staunch, conservative person. Then I became a psychometrist and was still very conservative in my thought, appearance, and dress; because that is the perception society has for educators and data analyst and I jumped right into the mold. For the last 18 months I have been working towards my counseling degree and during this time I have been rediscovering myself, and that little ole hippie is beginning to resurface, and I realized how much I have missed her. So, forgive me if I seem a little out of sorts and unsure about things at this time, but I am going through a phase of rediscovery and I am rededicating myself to me and my purpose, and I am not the same person I was 5-years ago.

This time of rediscovering is about self-awareness and transformation, and that is the topic for this month. Transformation.

Transformation – what is it and how do we obtain it?

Transformation is defined as a thorough or dramatic change, convert, a major change in form, nature, or function. Basically, it’s not staying the same, and studies have shown that our bodies and minds change every seven years, but sometimes there is a resistance to change because of our environment or fear. Fear of the unknown of what this new you will be like and will our friends and family approve. I’m going to be honest with you; you just may lose some friends along the way, and your family may become a little uncomfortable with your transformation. Things you were so clear about in the past will become fuzzy and you will go through a phase of uncertainty but that’s good. Question yourself. Question your actions. Question others’ actions and focus on becoming a higher thinker and more authentic.

What I want you to focus on this month is You finding You! Let’s start by imagining the person you feel you are and compare it to how others see you. Slowly start allowing the real you shine through. While meditating imagine that person inside you shining through the small cracks of your physical body, she’s fighting to get out, she’s tired of being locked it, she’s tired of being quiet. Allow her vulnerability to show through and all her authenticity to shine. Allow yourself to transform and watch what happens around you; watch your environment change, what your views and opinions change, watch your circle of friends change; and embrace it.